Obstacle to joy

my biggest obstacle to joy in my life...is my ego.

Joy is to see the larger picture!

The ego only wants to see me; it only sees the "injustices" the unfairness, the evil that is done against me.  I am reduced to only me.
Thus, I live in anger, fear and sadness.  Every action becomes a slight, I become the eternal victim.

Joy comes when I realize it's not about me.

People's actions are generally not directed towards me.   The world does not revolve around me.

I am a child of God, loved by God.

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